Happy Canada Day!

Bonne fête du Canada!

Canada Day

Happy Birthday Canada! It’s the first year I know that I’ve celebrated it thanks to my lovely Portia. I was trying to cook some good food for us to each but she insisted on bombing me with water balloons. Needless to say we are eating late this evening. It’s very cool that both Canada and the US celebrate similar but separate holidays within just a few days of one another. I had absolutely no idea the holiday existed. That’s some Americanism for you ain’t it. Continue reading

Just Breathe…. Discussing Bloggers, Designers, and Sponsorship

Breathe

It’s been an emotional day.

Even now, I’m not sure what I’m going to write or how I’m going to begin. There are a few things I’d like to discuss in this post but I want to approach them gently, as gently as possible, anyway.

I was removed from one of my blogger groups this afternoon. No warning, no offlines, no “hey, Portia, I noticed you haven’t posted in a while” or even a “thanks for doing what you did but we need to keep our roster super-active,” kind of message. There was nothing and, I’m not going to lie, I took it hard as I have been covering this brand unofficially for many years. I’m still taking it hard, trying to get through the night by reminding myself to breathe through the ache in my throat and the stinging in the corners of my eyes.

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It’s been hard for me to find the time to blog this month. All of us get busy and sometimes I’m jealous of the fact that many of the bloggers I admire find the time to post regularly, even frequently, when it’s been so hard for me to carve out a few hours to sit down and work on a picture. That’s what it is for me: hours. The picture you see above, which I love, took about three hours from start to finish, maybe a little longer because I had to reinstall Photoshop (thank you, Life). This post will take another hour to write because I’m not interested in posting a picture and credits. I won’t do it. It breaks my heart a little bit to think that if I’d just bent a little bit on that ‘rule’ of mine in the past, Mask and Mien could be doing better than it is now. I wouldn’t have let one of my favourite people in SL down the way I did. Continue reading

Sun, Sleep, and OUCH!

Public Service Announcement: Do NOT fall asleep in the sun for an extended period of time. You will undoubtedly get sunburn if no one else is around to wake you up.

Sleep & Sun

Good lord almighty does it burn after you wake up and realize you have been asleep for hours. I couldn’t help it honestly, being out in the middle of the water with the cool breeze blowing on my skin was just too relaxing. Somehow I managed to stay on my SUP board the entire time. I have to think I might have been better off if I had fallen in the water and saved myself from the intense sunburn I now have. SPF 50 from now on, no question. Continue reading

For The Alliance

The Warcraft movie is almost here, and I as a WoW player am beyond excited. So much so that I managed to find a lovely “Jaina Proudmoore” to accompany me on this post.

For The Alliance

First off, FOR THE ALLIANCE. Alright now that I have that out of my system let’s get to the real deal. We❤ RP is getting ready to start it’s June round and the previews I’ve seen are absolutely stellar. It’s an event that has grown near and dear to my heart thanks to the lovely Portia. I had never attended nor paid attention to it, for that I’m sorry We <3, but now I get very excited each time a new one comes around. I’ve ventured in the world of RP recently so seeing all of the unique items and figuring out what and if I can use something in my roleplay scenarios is so much fun. Continue reading

A Life Indoors ~ Speaking Out About Going Outside

“Never give up on someone with a mental illness. When “I” is replaced by “We”, illness becomes wellness.”
Shannon L. Alder

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Disclaimer: This is going to be a bit of a heavier post than I’m used to writing. For those of you uncomfortable with the idea of reading about anxiety and mental illness, I understand. Truly. It’s a difficult subject. You don’t need to read any more than this paragraph – credits are at the bottom.❤

I realized today just how long it’s been since the last time I wrote about anxiety. Years, really, and as much as I would like to say that it’s because I am completely out of the woods, that really isn’t the case. I’ve written about my condition prior to this (here and here) and hinted at it from time to time as well. I am not ashamed of my illness and I don’t believe anyone should ever worry that speaking out about who they are, as long as it does no harm, nor should they be judged or shunned for their personal life. If I don’t discuss mental disorder often, it’s because my anxiety has become just another fact of life. I am a Canadian woman. I have green eyes and a nice smile. I live with chronic anxiety, agoraphobia, and hypersensitivity.

Not a single one of these traits defines who I am but they do contribute to the sum of their parts. I don’t rail against my agoraphobia anymore, just like I don’t hate the fact that my hair is too straight to curl – I work with it. I do the best I can with what I have and believe me, the work never ends. It’s hard to be happy on a consistent basis but I don’t think I’m alone in that either. Most people have a hard time being happy. Everybody struggles with something.

Let me tell you about my struggles, though. Maybe it will help with yours. Continue reading

I’ll Be The Moon

“The phone lights up in the dark asks where you are & I start driving
Meet me for a drink, just an hour, maybe two, maybe three, baby I’m in”
Dierks Bentley – I’ll Be The Moon [ft. Maren Morris]

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Just a fun little shot today, inspired by Dierks Bentley’s  song “I’ll Be The Moon” featuring Maren Morris. I’ve been somewhat of a fan of him for a while favoring a few songs here and there rather than full albums. His latest album Black is in my opinion his best and really hits you in the feels. I’ll share a video to watch at the bottom if anyone has an interest in it. Continue reading

Raccoons At Noon

Racooons At Noon

It’s the middle of May, plants are starting to grow, birds are chirping endlessly (at least in my neck of the woods), and there are more events going on then a sane person can count!

Racooons At Noon

Let’s start at the top, my top that is. It is [Deadwool]’s newest release Henley shirt available exclusively at the brand new event ULTRA. It runs from May 15-June 15 and then every other month after that. Masa never disappoints me with anything he creates. The Henley is beautifully crafted, the texture work is exquisite and like anything we get from him it has a hud to add even more customization. I just love it. Not only will I be using it in my normal day to day, but it may make an appearance our two in my newly found love of RP. Of course we’ll see how well I can make it work in that realm as I’m quite new to it all. My awesome hat is currently out at The Mens Dept. It’s TonkTastic which as you know by now is my 100% go to for anything military style that I need. I might own 90% of the store now. This hat is a perfect addition to any collection as it has different texture options along with the ability to show a patch on the front and a name on the back strap. Yes, you should try it! Continue reading

Sunshine My Love

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It makes me so happy to see Bakaboo showing up more and more in my Flickr and blog streams. If you haven’t heard of Bakaboo yet, read on dear reader…

Sunshine My Love 2

It is fitting that I’m back with more sweet newness from Bakaboo. I’ve said it before and I’ll probably continue to say it as long as I’m around, Ocean just knows what he is doing. I have never once looked at Bakaboo and said anything less than “Wow.” This time is no different. I opened these up and boom, the color, the patterns, the attention to detail. This month at Swank we have exclusives for both men and women. Continue reading

These First Few Steps (Story Post)

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“Have you ever felt like maybe, just maybe, there are things each of us are -meant- to do?

I’m not talking about the regular stuff: grow up, get that degree, find a career that pays (bonus points for personal fulfillment); family, kids, house .. win at Life! Or .. I’m not -only- talking about the regular stuff. What about the real existential-level destiny-with-a-capital-dee ‘born to BE someone’ schtick that we all secretly hope to have? Some mystical lottery jackpot we don’t even have to pay to play?

Do you believe in Fate? In Luck?

I didn’t, not for a long time. Not until they decided to come and kick me in the ass, anyway.

Doesn’t make sense yet? Don’t worry, I’ll get to it in good time.”

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A temple beneath the sand.

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